Sometimes I have a hard time believing I'm a good person. I know that the good things about me are awesome and the not-so-good things about me aren't great. Like, I am bossy, loud and irreverent. I have issues with authority and am scarily aggressive when I lose my temper. I'm acutely aware of these traits, among others, and really hard on myself for them.
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But as the new year rolled around and I grew weary of bemoaning the state of my affairs and mind and love life, I decided to quit whining and make some changes. You can't keep doing the same thing over and over and over again and expect different results.
First on my list of changes was loving myself. Yup, that easy: decide it is so, and so it is. If I fuck up? Whatever. It's going to happen, can be fixed, and wasn't intentional. Make an ass of myself? Doesn't mean I stopped being a good person. BTW, I do not consider this license to act like an ass, I'm just trying to learn how to forgive me because guess what? I ain't perfect and I'm tired of beating myself up for it.
I don't think I'm alone in this, either. I think everyone knows self-doubt, and those who do are at least acquainted with loathing. So today I want you to tell me what you love about you; anything, everything, I want to hear you say how much you love you. I'll get the ball rolling and go first: I am smart, funny, sexy, capable, loyal, genuine, imaginative, and adventurous. I love my big, blue eyes and tiny waist and feet.
Wow. That was harder than I thought it would be. It took me a while and I was uncomfortable saying nice things about myself knowing people would read them. Interesting.
Now you. Tell me what you love about you. Don't be shy. I don't want to come back here and read any qualifiers like, "Well, I'm sorta really good in bed." You're either great in the sack or you ain't. I want honest, not modest.
We're watching you.
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